isn't it great to be in love
I love my girl
and she says she loves me
I only know I don't deserve her
oh I get depressed
but it is life
and it is hard
standing here looking over the edge
not fearing the fall
only the the not knowing
what happens when I land
come look
something is there
I can wait to see it up close

the thing I do best

the thing I do best
is when I hold you

you know that I
gladly give up my life
for my kids
they look at me
with those big round eyes
I can play with them all day
and take them
everywhere with me

but when you look at me
I don't know how to tell you
exactly how I feel
but I want you to know
the thing I do best
is when I hold you

you gave birth to a child
and you feel that maternal bond
mothers' love is always giving
and children are such joy
I never want to take away that
but only add my feelings
so when i hold you
and don't want to let go

so when you look at me
I don't know how to tell you
exactly how I feel
but I want you to know
the thing I do best
is when I hold you

I only know how
this one man feels
and often I try
to make it understood
if I say out loud
the words sound so strange
what is in my heart
how you feel in my arms

but when you look at me
I don't know how to tell you
exactly how I feel
but I want you to know
the thing I do best
is when I hold you

my doll raised me here

my doll raised me here
so long ago
of course as time goes
it seems like yesterday

I know every brick
and have been touched
by the walls

a meeting place filled
with laughter and dreams
good times now only
a faint echo across
a empty room

I tried to grasp this home
but it's like trying to grasp sand
it just slips away

in my mind
I can see you here
though I can't touch your face
I can feel your presence

It is hard for me
to not be by your side
looking at your smile
you in your chair
now just a empty space

I don't want to leave my past
behind
but my doll is
finally finished raising me now

just a kiss

just a kiss
seems like so little
yet it makes me so happy
the lack makes me so sad
you walk away
fearing to wake me
I thought of a hug
now I rush to leave
and steal a kiss
thinking of you
and just a kiss

most days

most days I don't feel like writing
seems like I have less issues to resolve
writing helped me get thru the
death of my wife, my mother
and good friend(sister-in-law)
now I found a love and friend
I have my family near me
so I don't cry out at nite
much anymore
and I feel less need to talk
to the page



most days the beach is calling
calling out to me
saying that beauty is mine to share
quiet tranquility
wind blowing
sun shining
my chance for redemption
my chance for a reprieve
I know that I'm lucky
but I guess I paid some dues
so much lost time
so many days just waiting
knowing in my heart
that my enjoyment would come
God blesses us in such diverse ways
I look not at my loss
for I have cried my tears
I have lived the pain
I look forward to my gain
time to live fully
time to love deeply
my heart says yes
my mind says yes
who am I do argue
so if you want to find me
just look down the shore
sooner or later you will
see me walk by
I'll be the ol man
living life to it's fullest
stopping to stand in the warm surf
with the sand shifting between my toes
holding hands with my love
watching another great sunset
must be paradise
most days

once

once I felt
now I don't
time is lost
sleep is the only
reality
and I don't
look into my eyes
what do you see
redness swelling
tears
of course
not
I can not cry
I only stare blankly
empty of thought
for she is not near
where do I find life
where do I find time
time to breathe
anger fear pain
is hurt an emotion
or just the only
thing I feel
I hear no voice
no music
I sigh
stop
the world is still spinning
the world is
not concerned
how can this be
I am the world
no she was my world
and now I can't feel
I remember
but her touch is gone
I held as tight as I could
as long as I could
but now I long for
hope
I always had hope
now it is gone
emptiness fills my life
nothingness reigns
once I felt
now I don't

no shoe blues

I had to quit school
so my brother could go
he needed my shoes
I got the no shoe blues

barefoot ain't so bad
if having things feels sad
but some things just ain't right
I got the no shoe blues

stuffed paper in the toes
to make'em fit tight
they said he was the smart one
and I was just not right

now I'm driving a Rolls Royce
my brother he's selling shoes
I'm still goin barefoot
I got the no shoe blues

I'm a mama's boy

yes, I'm a mama's boy
no one else could make me feel more loved
than when my mother held me close
I never felt safer than when I lay my head in her lap
and she gently stroked my brow
I never felt stronger, prouder, braver or secure
than when she smiled her approval
for something I had done
no sweeter song was sung by anyone
than by her voice
I would never feel worse
than by her simple look
telling me I was wrong
some people would say
oh, he 's a mama's boy
and mean to deride
but put it on a badge
so I can wear it
for nothing is better than any food
my mama made
and I feel so content when I could sit beside her
next to my mother and hold her close
I just wish that I wasn't always
leaving and saying goodbye
so I'm saying it loud
so all can hear
I'm a mama's boy
mama I miss you

I hold your hand

I hold your hand
you hold my heart
I embrace the sun
and marvel at the moon
too soon the hands
tell me that it is time
too soon my life
interferes
and makes me choose
alas I have no choice
I play out my time
and you decide to be with me
on terms you never thought
would be asked
because you fear not the sleep
I loathe the sleep
I fear the chance to die
as now I fight the night
understand
I don't win
but I still fight
I miss your heat
the warmth you give to me
you are much too sweet to me
but I do not resist you
I can not and choose not
I long to caress you
hold on to my heart
till I can hold your hand again

my enemy sleep

sleep is my enemy
I want to be alive
and sleep is like death
alone with no one to share
time is all I can spend
I lose that when I sleep
but when I 'm with you
just your presence
is all the living I need
soft heat
warm body
loving heart
I drift into you and sleep
peaceful fulfilled
knowing that in the morn
I will caress you
and feel your warmth
and taste your lips
but we can not always
be together
so sleep my enemy
I will wage against you
feel my life
for you conquer me not
at least not
tonight

him

smile when you remember his kiss
value each time that you shared with him
think about the first kiss fondly
the first times you made love
the happy moments
when you sat and waited
anticipating his return
longing for his warmth
waiting to embrace and feel his strength
I want you to remember the many good times
the shared memories
the joy and love he gave you
this is your past
you need to feel good about it
but when I hold you
be with me
and only me
for I too have a past
and happy times
but they are gone
be with me now
and let us make our joy
now