the thing I do best

the thing I do best
is when I hold you

you know that I
gladly give up my life
for my kids
they look at me
with those big round eyes
I can play with them all day
and take them
everywhere with me

but when you look at me
I don't know how to tell you
exactly how I feel
but I want you to know
the thing I do best
is when I hold you

you gave birth to a child
and you feel that maternal bond
mothers' love is always giving
and children are such joy
I never want to take away that
but only add my feelings
so when i hold you
and don't want to let go

so when you look at me
I don't know how to tell you
exactly how I feel
but I want you to know
the thing I do best
is when I hold you

I only know how
this one man feels
and often I try
to make it understood
if I say out loud
the words sound so strange
what is in my heart
how you feel in my arms

but when you look at me
I don't know how to tell you
exactly how I feel
but I want you to know
the thing I do best
is when I hold you

my doll raised me here

my doll raised me here
so long ago
of course as time goes
it seems like yesterday

I know every brick
and have been touched
by the walls

a meeting place filled
with laughter and dreams
good times now only
a faint echo across
a empty room

I tried to grasp this home
but it's like trying to grasp sand
it just slips away

in my mind
I can see you here
though I can't touch your face
I can feel your presence

It is hard for me
to not be by your side
looking at your smile
you in your chair
now just a empty space

I don't want to leave my past
behind
but my doll is
finally finished raising me now

just a kiss

just a kiss
seems like so little
yet it makes me so happy
the lack makes me so sad
you walk away
fearing to wake me
I thought of a hug
now I rush to leave
and steal a kiss
thinking of you
and just a kiss

most days

most days I don't feel like writing
seems like I have less issues to resolve
writing helped me get thru the
death of my wife, my mother
and good friend(sister-in-law)
now I found a love and friend
I have my family near me
so I don't cry out at nite
much anymore
and I feel less need to talk
to the page



most days the beach is calling
calling out to me
saying that beauty is mine to share
quiet tranquility
wind blowing
sun shining
my chance for redemption
my chance for a reprieve
I know that I'm lucky
but I guess I paid some dues
so much lost time
so many days just waiting
knowing in my heart
that my enjoyment would come
God blesses us in such diverse ways
I look not at my loss
for I have cried my tears
I have lived the pain
I look forward to my gain
time to live fully
time to love deeply
my heart says yes
my mind says yes
who am I do argue
so if you want to find me
just look down the shore
sooner or later you will
see me walk by
I'll be the ol man
living life to it's fullest
stopping to stand in the warm surf
with the sand shifting between my toes
holding hands with my love
watching another great sunset
must be paradise
most days