mushy

I guess that mushy is not good
can I have my dream
can you tell me that the sunset is beautiful
don't you know a codeword
I love your smile
this sounds all disjointed
perhaps because I have twisted so many ways
that I only can grasp bits and pieces of reality
so I missed a beautiful sunset and the moon hid from me
but if I had only one moment
it would be tonight
for a feeling so strong and clear
is to be cherished
so forgive me
my precious
I just have trouble with saying the words
I feel the feeling
and love your actions
I want to say it but can't
so listen closely
as I softy tell you
that I care for you deeply
I guess I'll go before my whole world
turns to mush

I went to the beach
hoping to see just a sunset
get my feet wet in the warm surf
feel the sand between my toes
I do like to walk along the edge of the surf
so I really don't look for shells
I never expect to find a treasure
or even a lost watch
more like seaweed
or dead fish
but I did timidly throw out my fishing line
and caught a mermaid
am I a lucky guy or what

accept the joy

I was reading today
and it said
to accept the joy
God has granted all joy
so we only need to accept it
I did and do

no matter

no matter where you are
no matter what you see
no matter that the stars aren't shining
no matter that darkness reigns
I will be holding on to this moment
I will never forget the way you look
dreams may not help you
good thoughts can help but a little
guidance may be hard to find
and more difficult to understand
so look not for the stars to guide you
or a compass to show you the way
listen to your body
hear the gentle tugging
of your heart
the deep stirrings of your soul
feel that little tingle
let it expand and be your voice
sing to the moon
serenade the waves
stand on the sand
and be prepared to be washed away
come to my world
come to my heart
where no map will lead you
but when you arrive
you will know that you belong

I held her hand

I held her hand
so tiny and fragile
only a few weeks old
she seems to look at me
so blissful
I felt such a sensation inside
I am a hero
and she is my heroine
future is all she has
my love can only speed her on
she coos at my soft words
understanding the intent
just not the words
I carry her
light as a feather
to nurture and help her grow
if I can be her guiding light
then her path will be clear
I will burn as the candle in the wind
flickering but illuminating
watching her grow

tin man

I am the tin man
and only you can give me my heart
I am the tin man
I didn't know I cared
before I met you
thinking of love
was not on my mind
for I thought I had no heart
so I thought I was the tin man
I didn't need to find the wizard
but I did need to see a sunset
needed to feel the warm breeze
needed to touch the softest soft
needed to feel the warmest warm
there is more to come
but I need my heart
so this tin man is asking
can you give me my heart

so alive

not that I felt bad before
maybe not complete
a piece missing
a puzzle incomplete
I asked for some kind words and good feelings
I received a new way of living
I just feel so alive
so good inside
past is just a distant memory
present is the concentration
for what better
than to just throw yourself
into living
enjoying life
hugging your security blanket
and loving the smiles
saw a sunrise
meant that I have a chance
a prescription to alleviate the past
and ignore the future
I will not think
I will try to close my eyes and feel my way
searching for the soft wind and warm surf

serene

tonight I felt so serene
also so secure
I cuddled up to my security blanket
and just gave a hug
if life is so good right now
why would I worry
shouldn't I just enjoy the moment
and not question why it is happening
I want to dance the shag
and hold on tight
while the world spins
I am only along for ride
but it is such a good ride
if you count right
then step correctly
then the music feels right
and time is the rhythm
time to dance
time to sing
time to love
time to live
quick before someone notices
take my hand
kiss me
then tell me how you feel

what to say

some nights things feel so unreal
the rain is falling
and the thunder is booming
yet the house is silent
dare not make a sound
for fear that the noise will reveal me
I would have to face my foe
the future
nothing is known about it
and nothing can help you prepare for it
so I will hide in the present
I shall not think about tomorrow
I hope it is fulfilling
sleep is calling
but I prefer to hide a bit longer
and maybe I can capture yet another moment of bliss

I'll be good

I said I'll be good
and I tried to be
things were good
but I tried the same old thing
just trying to read what I feel
and feel what I know
guess that just because it is real
just because it is what I feel
doesn't mean it can't be overcome
I try to listen to my body
I try to listen to my heart
I try to listen to what my senses tell me
all these things tell me to do what
I did
it all felt right
it all felt good
I sensed that it was right
I sensed that it was good
but I wasn't being good
so being real is bad
don't stick your hand in fire lest you get burned
don't let me feel the goodness
don't let my hand feel the fire
for I will burn
like a blue hot flame
burn me up
burn me down
burn me burn me
just let me feel something

again my little world

my fortune cookie contained this fortune for me
look forward to great fortune and
a new lease on life

I sat like I had nothing to do
I closed my eyes
and smiled
I drifted into my little world
and waited for her
between our good byes
I tried to call
but there was no answer
so I said I will try again tomorrow
for in my little world
I do feel no pain
I only allow in the happiness
that so many are willing to share
and if I am alone
even the better
for I can dream of the good things I know to come
for separation makes the feelings intensify
and good things are accepted so easily
I look for the sunset
and see a golden ball
instead of a dark cloud
don't ask to enter
for I can only share
just a little
and it is hard to know
if you can accept the good
and reject the bad
for in my little world
the joy is present
and the future is bright
excuse me
while I return to my little world

my little world

I have been in my little world
and it has been heavenly
I spend my beach bum life and share it with
a lovely lady
I share her as little as possible
but she occupies most of my time
so I have neglecting my alter ego
and feel less wanting of sharing my soul
felt the warm night breeze and said a farewell
I will be doing my godfather duty
and maybe on return I will be inspired to write some

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thru closed eyes

afraid to open my eyes
for thru my closed eyes I feel great beauty
I feel with my hands and objects are so smooth
don't tell me to open my eyes
I may only be dreaming and if I awake
this precious moment will be gone
It doesn't feel like a dream but thru my closed eyes
it is real and I am cool
there is no else around but me
no stranger no foe
can I just stay
not having to go
I can behave
I will keep my eyes closed
I believe
thru closed eyes