you are me

you are not stealing a moment
from me
you are not depriving me
of one second of love
you are not hurting me
in the least
I gave you all the love
I had
now it is your turn to
create anew
yes I want to share all
of the precious moments
but they do not exist
for my benefit
I have passed on
the life force
I expect you to fully
exercise love to its fullest
I know that I
extracted every morsel of essence
from you when we were together
and I now enjoy every second
I bask in the glow of love
from your child
but you are the force that
must mold that life
I can help but my presence
is not essential
my work is done
through you
for you are me
I am your father
I am my daughter
I just want you to know
that I love you

I only miss you

I only miss you
when I go to touch you
when I roll over and realize I'm alone
when I open my eyes
when I close my eyes
when I awake
when I try to sleep
when I look at the stars
when I see the sun
tonight when I saw your name
yesterday when I saw your picture
tomorrow when I want to kiss you
when I try to breathe
when I ask why
when I'm on my knees crying
when I bow my head to pray
I only miss you
because you are not here
I only miss you
when I plan on how
to see you again
when my whole life is
asking for you
when I softly call your name
when they ask why
why am I so sad looking
I only miss you
all the time

envelope

I put my love in a envelope
with two rings
simple and plain
sealed with a kiss
I wrote on the envelope
open when you can say yes
I'm not in hurry
just felt you should know
that I 'm ready
I will wait
as long as it takes
when you say yes
we can still take our time
I plan to put it in a
plastic bag
and give it to you
after New Years' eve
in the hot tub
just wanted to say to the world
that I love you
and want to be with you

no more yesterdays

it was just yesterday
that I held you in my arms
the day before when our
babies were born
another yesterday
you were my consuming flame

today I'm crying
all I can think about is
yesterday

and I'm not going
to stop crying
until there are
no more yesterdays

travel the road

I look in the clouds
and see great beauty
I close my eyes
and see great dreams
I have given to you
so very little
yet you have turned into
something much more
than I could sustain
Your dreams pull you along
causing you to go places
and do things on a road
that only you can travel
I pray that God
gives you strength
to make it through each
and every day
for I know that if
you possess the strength
that you have the will
to travel the road
I just want you to know that
I love you

granddaughter song

he says he loves my smile
said it's my mommy's
then we play awhile
and he hugs me

says I remind him of his mother
and he gets something in his eye
he throws me in the air
and makes a face at me

he puts me on his shoulders
and then we talk
we go to the store
or by the shore we walk

he smiles at me
and I smile back
and maybe today
a beautiful sunset

know that I love you

know that I love you
sleep dream
when you awake
think of me
I will join you
again
when the work day ends
take my hand
kiss my lips
place your legs across mine
embrace me
as I embrace you
caress me
let me touch your soft skin
I leave
and disappear into the night
I hate to leave
but must
our time together
all too brief
know that I love you

the rings

I look at your ring
and look at mine
we still are connected
to our separate pasts
for your ring is his
mine ring is hers
we have said that
we are over
that the past is done
but we can never really
lose what we were
a constant reminder
that you are bound
by the rules
we pretend to ignore
I cannot dwell on it
but I must accept
or try to
can I be so selfish
to think I could replace
so many years of love
and pain
we hold each others hand
look at our rings
and smile
for we are trying
to live now
use old promises
to bind a new love
so lets pretend
that I gave you
and you gave me
these symbols
a chance
to love anew
fresh starts
just tell no lies
love honestly
and ignore
the shadow of the past
leaning over our shoulder
I promise you
you promise me
let us go forward from here
others will think
that we are one
because of our rings
because of the way
we act and look at each other

for a moment

the perfect moment
I thought many times in the past
that the moment was the one
I would choose
if I had to choose only one
but I just had the perfect moment
where I felt like a piece
of a jigsaw puzzle
all twisted with legs going
one way
and arms and head another
yet everything fit
and the other pieces
locked into me
I was part of a perfect moment
where everything felt right
and good
for that moment
warm and snugly
but with my mind at peace
my heart filled with love
and my soul full of joy
for that moment I was more than one
I was more
perfect
for a moment

if I burn in hell

it was what we wanted
it was what we needed
the feelings were real
the meaning was true
our expression was intense
why can't we talk about it
do we just walk around it
so much is unsaid
so much is unknown
if I burn in hell
because of your touch
why does God let us feel this way
each day is better with you
each moment of your company
is sought with great anticipation
when we are together
life is good
when we talk
we understand
so why can't we discuss this
don't change what is working
don't disturb fate
tomorrow is another chance
to give what I can to you
if I don't understand
do know
that I care
and I won't let go

walkin at midnight

should I laugh
should I cry
if I open my eyes
will I see the blue sky
or just some dark clouds
is this real
or not
do I care
I would walk in the dark
at midnight
if I would find my peace
but I will lay next to heaven
tomorrow
and feel sweet tenderness
a soft shoulder and gentle manner
my love I will profess
and it will be returned
for I am not perfect
and I feel like a piece of jagged glass
from a mirror
that has somehow found a fit
when I look in the mirror
the image seems so content and happy
so is this real
it is what I have
and I enjoy it so
and feel such sweetness
that I think about now
and lay my head to sleep
rather than walking at midnight