once

once I felt
now I don't
time is lost
sleep is the only
reality
and I don't
look into my eyes
what do you see
redness swelling
tears
of course
not
I can not cry
I only stare blankly
empty of thought
for she is not near
where do I find life
where do I find time
time to breathe
anger fear pain
is hurt an emotion
or just the only
thing I feel
I hear no voice
no music
I sigh
stop
the world is still spinning
the world is
not concerned
how can this be
I am the world
no she was my world
and now I can't feel
I remember
but her touch is gone
I held as tight as I could
as long as I could
but now I long for
hope
I always had hope
now it is gone
emptiness fills my life
nothingness reigns
once I felt
now I don't