Monday, July 18, 2011

still wanting to touch you

still wanting to touch you
even though i spent so much time with you
my feeling for you is just as strong
this constant desire
is only quenched briefly
the next day and the day after
the feeling is the same
still wanting to touch you
oh i know that
when i touch you i feel the fire
the intensity of a love that is true
the soft caresses
the tender kisses
the warm touch of your body
these remain my constant desire
i feel the hesitancy
the slight fear of total acceptance
how you feel my presence when i'm not near
but for me there is
no replacing
how i feel when i am with you
simply
the best most wonderful
intense pleasure
is to be with you
when i look at you and you smile at me
my world is complete
you have to offer me nothing else
yet i do desire you
i do love you deeply
i want the oneness
that only commitment brings
so be yourself
but don't be afraid
to shed some of the past
for i can not carry my past with me
neither should you
our present is wonderful
and our future shines bright
but i'm
still wanting to touch you
in the morning
and in the brightness of day
as well as
in the quiet night
for as i accept you
i too look for acceptance
as a man that
still wants to touch you

Sunday, July 17, 2011

dreams of the past

why do i
why do i
have to dream of the past
how can i
how can i
make this feeling go past

it'll just make me hurt
and i just can't cry
i want to feel my new love
i already said goodbye

why do i
why do i
have to dream of the past
how can i
how can i
make this feeling go past

as i lay next to her
my heart feels no pain
her lips are so warm
the world seems so sane

why do i
why do i
have to dream of the past
how can i
how can i
make this feeling go past

so i'll try again
in a minute or two
to go to sleep
and not dream of you

why do i
why do i
have to dream of the past
how can i
how can i
make this feeling go past

Sunday, July 10, 2011

finally a man

i think i am
finally a man
i just realized that you let me
touch the real you
that soft gentle inner woman
i saw you as this hot almost wild woman
a lot of rough edges
practical hard working
showing a raw side untamed
so i tried to be this guy
who was firm but silly
a big little boy
trying to be slightly forceful
how wrong was i
i just touched you
without a bit of strength
just trying to respect your softness
i was ever so gentle
more so than i ever have been
i feel so strong but not vulnerable
you were open to me
and i caressed you
with a sensitive touch that i hadn't felt before
i long to continue this journey with you
i feel that i have a woman by my side
and i finally feel like a man
so i will be the soft gentle man
who loves you deeply

Thursday, July 7, 2011

how many more times

i don't know
how many times
i'm going to feel this pain
i don't know how many times
i can let you hurt me
i don't know how many times
i will walk in the rain
i just know that
i'm not ready to let you
walk out that door
i don't know
how many times
i'm going to feel this pain
i keep telling my self
that the pain is over
that things
are going to change
the same old words are said
the aching starts in my head
you turn away
can't face the truth
say you love me
but not tonight
so i feel the pain
don't know what i've done
or what to do
just know that the pain
is the same
can i not love you
no
i guess that's not an option
so i will remain
here hurting
till tomorrow
trying to outlive
this pain
i think of yesterday
or was it so long ago
that i first held you
the pure joy of your touch
the love felt by we two
so i can handle the pain
as long as i believe that you still love me
how long will i feel
this pain
how many more times