angel in disguise

we sat watching an angel in disguise
we were all prepared to cry
i was proud to be included in the band
we watched and waited

i felt that i had not finished
what was started
so many years ago
i had been brought back

pulled from the edge of escape
to face my remaining fate
no fires were left burning
no prayer left unanswered

i prayed for the end of pain
i prayed for acceptance of partings
but to no avail
only God knows the plan
and i sit in the corner waiting

for surely his word would be just
but life must take its own course
and i question not the plan
but it is hard to accept

i didn't feel relief
i didn't feel comfort
i only drove away
my heart had been emptied

i can only look back
and feel proud and honored
to have shared two lives
that were so full

i love the remaining five
and as long as they are alive
i will count my self
as an unofficial Leblanc