feel so tired

Yes, I feel so tired. I guess I 'm still carrying the weight of so much loss.I allowed myself a beautiful sunset tonight. I felt its beauty but didn't feel its release. I wanted to hold her hand but alas, there was no one there. I feel a pain in my heart. I long to feel happy or my old bliss. I just write words and nothing feels good. So, touch me sweet woman. Touch my soul. I know that I will be in your arms again soon. I long for your kiss. I long for your touch. I long to hear your voice again. Am I ready to know you. I must be patient and let the feelings grow. You can't grow a flower in a day.Hopefully, the sunset tomorrow will be beautiful. I know it will be if your hand is in mine.