where am I going

do you know where you are going
sometimes it feels like I know
then I look around and ask
where am I?
tonight I asked that question
because I am by myself
there are other people in the house
there are other people in my life
but none with me right now
and I wonder where I will be next year
things will change then
I will face decisions
and right now
I don't want to make any decisions
I'm not allowing any of the future
to interfere with my present
that is how I operate
always living the present
enjoy myself
if you try to prepare for the future
you lose some of the present
if you dwell in the past
how can you enjoy what you have
if you have pain use it
if you have love adore it
if you have loss learn from it
so if I knew where I was going
I would still be where I am
and probably try to figure a way to change the future
by doing something different in the present
would I give up love for life
would I give up truth for fortune
would I trade what I have
to get what I will have
which is better
life or dreams
life or memories
or life with uncertainty