not ready

it took me this long to get here
I wasn't ready before now
I realize that if we had met
even a year ago
nothing would have happened
you would had not known the real me
I would have not searched out
your inner feelings
few words would have been said
if any
fences would have been in place
boundaries set
perhaps things would have developed
but probably not
I feel as if a dream was fulfilled
a dream I didn't know
or understand
so I sometimes look around
to assure myself that this is real
I feel
so complete
I was prepared
I was trained
the time is right
but not before now