I'll be good

I said I'll be good
and I tried to be
things were good
but I tried the same old thing
just trying to read what I feel
and feel what I know
guess that just because it is real
just because it is what I feel
doesn't mean it can't be overcome
I try to listen to my body
I try to listen to my heart
I try to listen to what my senses tell me
all these things tell me to do what
I did
it all felt right
it all felt good
I sensed that it was right
I sensed that it was good
but I wasn't being good
so being real is bad
don't stick your hand in fire lest you get burned
don't let me feel the goodness
don't let my hand feel the fire
for I will burn
like a blue hot flame
burn me up
burn me down
burn me burn me
just let me feel something